Friends, self-awareness impacts our God-awareness. And yet self-awareness is one of those vague, soft skills, that often gets overlooked as vital in our pursuit of God. See if you can relate to this:
Sometimes my Bible reads like the manual to my new oven (which is currently out of commision 🥴).
And then I think: something is not right. The dryness and distance we feel when we pick up God’s Word isn’t merely because something is wrong with us and we “lack dedication.”
(Here’s where self-awareness comes in.)
There were dozens of moments before we picked up our Bible (or, let’s be honest: thought to pick up our Bible but reached for our phone instead) that contributed to how we relate to the Person in those pages.
Just like in my marriage, when I’m short with Nate, or I resist his gestures of affection, it’s not that our love has mysteriously grown cold. I have to trace it back to a thought or an exchange that made me brittle.
God informs our understanding of ourselves and this understanding of ourselves helps us know how to receive Him. It’s not just God-awareness that’s lacking when my heart feels cold … it’s often God-informed self-awareness. (This is Psalm 139.)